On this Friday, April 11th, your intuition pulses strongly within you, Cancer. As a visionary, you possess the ability to see possibilities that others overlook, crafting your ideas into something worthy of admiration. Embrace this gift as the moon drifts gracefully through Libra, inviting you to assess your emotional landscape and how it intertwines with your aspirations.
As the 14th Lunar Day unfolds, it calls you to unlock your inner strength and initiate a transformation. You may feel the stirrings of change in your career, like a gentle whisper urging you to explore paths yet untraveled. Pay attention to the emotions that surface today; they hold the key to understanding the direction you wish to take.
Feeling entranced by the ideas that dance in your mind can significantly shift your perspective. Use this enchanting state to fuel your creative pursuits, allowing your instincts to guide your actions. Your ability to express your unique vision will resonate deeply with those around you, inviting collaboration and support. Throughout the day, let Libra’s grace encourage you to find balance in your thoughts and feelings. The decisions you consider may shape your journey in profound ways, so tread thoughtfully. Trust in your instincts and consider how your desires align with your newfound call to change, for today is a pivotal moment in your unfolding story.1
I packed my bike and suitcase into the back of an UberXL around 5:00 am headed to Newark Penn Station to embark on 48 hour Amtrak ride to begin a six month journey as agricultural apprentice. “Alas, _____ on the warpath, with a jarring aura.”2
As the sun graces this Saturday, April 12th, a gentle invitation to explore the playful side of life unfolds. The moon dances in Libra, encouraging a harmonious balance in your interactions. Embrace the idea of letting go of the familiar as you step into a world filled with potential for surprise.
This 15th Lunar Day brings with it a lighthearted spark ideal for a bit of charming mischief. Allow your creative instincts to guide your journey, weaving connections that are both intriguing and warm. You possess a unique gift for fostering belonging, so nurture this energy in your encounters and revel in the joy of companionship.
As you traverse through the day, hold onto the feeling of valiance; it can inspire your thoughts and actions in powerful ways. It may not be the best time of making significant decisions, and that’s perfectly fine. Instead, let the natural ebb and flow of your emotions paint your experiences without rushing into commitments just yet.
As evening approaches, take a moment to reflect on the beauty of your adaptability. Trust in your ability to create bonds even in uncertainty; your heart knows the way. Seek out warmth and laughter in the company of friends, and let this whimsical spirit of the day guide you toward new connections and bright memories.3
Around hour 22 of my trip, somewhere in Indiana, a man I would later come to know at Steve from Cincinnati when we shook hands to depart the train, said to me “Are you gonna stand up and stretch at all? You’ve been mighty still this entire time.” I had been mighty still, and I have been for a long time.
In a conversation that ebb’d and flowed for the next four hours we spoke about his granddaughter and his fear of her growing up in the "anxious generation", his dependence on his cellphone and the easements it offers. His thirty five years as a pilot including witnessing the owner of Mrs. Fields boarding one of his commercial flights and handing out cookies to everyone on board, as well as the beginning of airplane safety standards degradation stemming from a lack of regular maintenance. In response to the collision in Washington to D.C. he responded, “I’m surprised that doesn’t happen more often”. We also spoke about food. His growing up in the first generation to consume processed foods and the continual the biopiracy4 by large-scale corporations making the support of heirloom seed cultivators ever-more necessary.5 We spoke about the transition into adulthood and becoming a self-sustaining being, and pondering on it for a bit he said “this may be it for you, you might be getting ready to turn the corner”. We spoke about parenting, and how as a parent you don’t care too much if your child takes your advice, you just hope that they’re listening. Towards the end of our conversation when we slid into a natural lull, he chirped up and said “let me give you a piece of old man advice, if you sit down for too long you’ll get hemorrhoids,” coming from someone who spent more than three decades of his life sitting in a cockpit, I decided to take a lap. As I returned from my walk, I sat down in my seat to the crunch of my noise-cancelling headphones that I’ve been using to tune out the world go off like ceremonial gong and I understood that if this cycle of my life is going to be worth one’s salt, it is going to require me to do something that I’ve been failing at consequentially as of late. I’m going to have to listen, really, really listen.
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At the baggage counter where I stopped to leave my belongings before my next train departed the man behind the counter with several of his front teeth missing made the executive decision to defy protocol and hold my bags for free in the supply closet rather than charging me for space by-way of a ten dollar per bag fee. His valiance was felt, and the twenty dollars I would have paid to his employer found its way into his pocket reminding me that the world I desire to see is alive and well.
Today I woke up in a place where the sun shines a little brighter and the clouds feel a little closer than they usually do. Where the sound of rivers crashing sit right beyond the wind gusts in my ear. Tomorrow is the first day on my journey of becoming a farmer. Despite the skepticism around horoscopes and their validity, I find that believing in something other than what is tangible makes life a little bit more fun for me if nothing else. And I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel the shift.
Recently, I have come to the realization that my community trusts me to make mistakes, that is they trust me to be a leader. Not a leader that commands authority and dictates actions, but a leader who is in service of the whole. A leader who is comfortable not only with making decisions that impact the environment they exist in, but is also comfortable if those decisions prove to be the wrong ones, and then is still able to make them again. As I take this next step forward in my journey and embark on a new path, I move forward with the same humility, but a newfound confidence, something that I’ve been missing, something that everybody has been waiting to see in me for a long time.
I woke up this morning and baked in the sun before the police even rolled out of bed, mounted my single-speed bike and set off on a near thirty mile journey. There's something about being isolated in nature that evokes a sense of space within me. It allows me to explore the recesses of my brain that are discreetly filled to capacity with weighty thoughts and consequentially are rarely tended to in the way they should be. I imagine it's what my mother envisions for me when she mentions that she wants me to be free. Free from the inhibitions that I assume as my own, but only obscure what I truly desire.
It's enlightening to feel freedom in a place where I'm deemed foreign and strange. It's thrilling to be in control of my performance because I know my whites.6 Its affirming to see the magpies that remind of someone that I know will always be a part of me not too far from the crows that remind me of someone who currently moves me and know that I can hold two things with grace at the same time. I can be in between. It's laughable that Willy from the City Market and I can both be enjoying our Sunday on the trail without a care in the world about efficiency. How it's supposed to be. It's scary that as far away as I am from my family, I feel the closest I ever have to them.
I understand what we need from me and I'm learning how to share it.
I've never thought myself to be too much of anything, always stuck between multiple polarities I've found myself suspended in space and have found comfort here. I've found power here. Somewhere between is about defining yourself in the undefined.7 It is about the many worlds that exist; always remembering that the world I want to live in is here, has been here, for a long-while. It is about the many contradictions within each of us and how we accept and move with them into action. It is about rigorous citation8, and the many ways that citation manifests.9 10 11 12 13 14 It's about illegibility as a form of transcendence15 16 17, also stated as "there is no english translation for this". It's about knowing when something is complete but also acknowledging that what lies ahead may necessitate its change. More than anything, it's about obtaining freedom on your own terms, constantly.
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1. April 11th, 2025 Astrology Indigo Horoscope
2. Opening line from Endless by AKAI SOLO
3. April 12th, 2025 Astrology Indigo Horoscope
4. "Biopiracy is the unauthorized appropriation of knowledge and genetic resources of farming and indigenous communities by individuals or institutions seeking exclusive monopoly control through patents or intellectual property." Wikipedia
5. For anyone looking for seeds for a community garden, personal garden, or even a single pot on a windowsill Truelove Seeds, Sistah Seeds, and Southern Exposure Seed Exchange are great places to go.
6. In the opening paragraph of Tressie McMillan Cotton's essay "Know Your Whites" from her book Thick and Other Essays, she states "To know our whites is to understand the psychology of white people and the elasticity of whiteness. It is to be intimate with some white persons but to critically withhold faith in white people categorically. It is to anticipate white people's emotions and fears and grievances, because their issues are singularly our problem. To know your whites is to survive without letting bitterness rot your soul."
7. In a Louisiana Channel Interview Ocean Vuong defines his queer praxis as "alterity" and demanding of himself "another route."
Rigorous Citation
8. In Neema Githere's essay "Divesting from Quotidian Thefts: Notes on Rigorous Citation", they state, "I do not shy away from citing my kin because citation is a synonym for love, And I will never be ashamed of loving everything that has made me breathe and live differently."
9. Brian Eno speaking about the fallacy of genius and the prevalence of scenius, and how new ideas are often generated by communities not individuals.
10. It's one thing to take influence from ideas that shape your thinking, it's another to include those ideas openly in your work so that others can trace the threads the led you to where you currently are. I enjoy how in all of his albums, AKAI SOLO gives you fragments and excerpts of what's informing his thinking.
11. Rapper MIKE is headed on a world tour that involves 24 other artists, and in an interview he talks about being a fan of other artists and taking the opportunities to connect with them when he can.
12. After putting up 43 points to go up 3-1 against the Lakers, Anthony Edwards' first inclination in his post-game interview is to shed light on his teammates that contributed to the win.
13. Chef J. Kenji Lopez-Alt highlighting that his personal brownie recipe and the recipe used in his restaurant are derivatives of recipes from other chefs that he's in community with.
14. A post from the article "Every site needs a Links Page / Why linking matters" on Melon's Thoughts where the author states "Linking to other sites is an act of rebellion; but its also an act of meditation, and of ego death - linking to the work of others is a way of celebrating their achievements and by doing so, gaining dignity for yourself and your work. You deserve to be part of the web, not its final destination; and there is respect in knowing that. Its a two way street, a conversation, and a collaboration."
Freedom of Illegibility
15. Thumbnail from a Professor Skye Review that says "Mach-Hommy and the right to OPACITY".
16. One of the lyrics in AKAI SOLO's song Paint Smear says "Forging a way out of none/ a formless formula good luck emulating what you can't follow"
17. A page from the manga Vagabond where Shinmen Takezo displays his formless uninterpretable style.